I reckon a feller shouldn’t never grow up ‘thout a mama. Ain’t right, somehow, nor good.
Selfish, I am. Got me sisters an’ brothers needin’ the comfort and guidance of a mama, an’ I ain’t aimin’ on denyin’ them, no, I am not.
Havin’ a mama in the house is like plumb havin’ a angel around….one who scrambles the eggs, who mends the holes in the knees o’ our britches, who wets the worshrag to hold against our feverin’ brows. She’s the one who plucks the feathers from the fresh-slain chickens, and shucks, she’s the one who’ll wring they necks. She’s the one who shoos the hounds from the cats’ food but will pick the ticks from under they fur an’ give ’em a hug and a ruffle jest for sittin’ still. She’s the one who’ll worsh out our mouths with soap for takin’ the Lord’s name in vain, and won’t abide a lie, and who’ll make us cookies fer no reason a’tall. She’s the one who always says she loves us last thing ‘fore bed and first thing come mornin’. She’s the one who peeks in to check all is well, when we’re a’playin’ possum under the nighttime covers.
But me and MY Mama, we was always kindred spirits besides all that, always two of them podded peas. She’d have these visions, premonitions or what have you, and they’d cross the front o’ my thinking at pre-cisely the same darned time. Cain’t explain, nor could she. We, both o’us, understood of livin’ what others ‘ppeared to not.
My Mama, she could slide me the side-eye an’ I could read her thinkin’ in a snap. An’ toe the line if that was the message….as it often could be. We, both of us, could sing an’ spin an’ dance an’ holler, jest ’cause it was daylight. Or nightlight. Or Tuesday. We shared thinkin’ on books an’ the war over to Europe an’ dreams of trav’lin’ once this war was done.
She’s the one taught me cryin’ was fine, done in private, but when the clouds cleared, ’twas time to move on. She’s the one taught me God loves us even when we scratch him the wrong way. She taught me to be sorry when I should be, and not when I’m not.
She taught me to forgive real things, not jest say ” oh, that’s alright…” ‘Cause most time it ain’t.
So, Father God in Heaven, fergive me my lapsin’ o’faith. My Mama, she ain’t woke since she been bit. I put her in your lovin’ hands, but I be shrivellin’ wrinkled in fear. My Mama, she be yours, but I reckon I’d shore ‘ppreciate if you’d see yer way to lettin’ her be ours a mite more, if you see fit and willin’.
Amen and amen.
Yer servant and son, Liam. Liam Goodwell. Of the Denton County Goodwells.